Something I have neglected to write a lot about here in this blog is the impending birth of our little girl. I have mentioned it in passing a few times, but I not really delved into my thoughts about this.
Well...here you go!
I was just sitting here thinking about how next month at this time there will be a tiny little baby upstairs, probably crying her head off, tiring both Jen and I into an exhaustion unlike any that we have ever experienced. But you know what...that is awesome. Throughout this whole pregnancy, I can honestly say I have never really been that nervous about becoming a dad. I am not scared, I am not nervous...just excited. Sure, there is a different type of feeling that goes with this new role. Not quite nervousness or fear...more or less anxiety. Can I provide for this little baby? Will I be a good dad? Will the role models that Jen and I have come out in a positive or negative way as we are raising her? So many things, so mnay anxious moments ahead of us.
But as I said, I am not nervous about becoming a dad. I am excited...I am embracing this opportunity. I can not wait to meet my little girl, to hold her for the first time. Just to be able to look into her eyes and see the amazing, uncertain future that lays ahead. To see her goofy grin as I make a fool out of myself, to hug her when she needs nothing more and to be able to just hold her in my arms and thank God that she is my little girl. How can you not be exicted for something like this? How can you now be counting the days until she is here?
I know we will make mistakes. I know we will not always be the perfect parents, but nonetheless, I am ready for this journey. I am ready for this adventure. Most importantly, though...I am ready to be a dad.
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